Hi and welcome to my blog!
This is a place for my art, thoughts, and book reviews.
Whether you know me personally, or came across this site randomly, I hope you'll enjoy your stay here.
This is a place for my art, thoughts, and book reviews.
Whether you know me personally, or came across this site randomly, I hope you'll enjoy your stay here.
> he/him
> lo-fi lover
> passionate overthinker
> central Europe
> vegan for the animals
> philosophy student
My bucket-list:
Currently listening to:
Three Days Grace
Random facts about me:
Also check out my best friend's blog:
nicolas-leinonen.neocities.org
Favourite series:
Favourite books:
My wild dreams:
Tbh I don't have the discipline to practise art regularly, but I have this love for artistic
versions of
tarot that lead me to working on my own deck.
I discovered my art style in the process, and I'm
loving it. Once I'm finished, I'll have all the cards printed, so I can do readings with them.
Below are some of my favourites:
I fell in love with pixel art, and hope to start making some soon, too! So far I only created the buttons that are on this blog.
2026-01-02
Last year wasn’t bad. I got to experience some old conflicts from the other side. I lost myself in illusions, and snapped out of them again. I’m still halfway to nowhere, but at least I’m walking a path that’s mine.
One important moment was when I realized one of my friendships had had a bad influence on me, since I was trying to be someone I was not. I still can’t believe what I spiraled into. When I came to be aware of it, I turned on my favourite lo-fi music, stopped saying things I didn’t believe, meditated, and went for a walk.
As I was in the middle of nowhere, I looked up at the night sky. I imagined what it would be like to travel through the universe, to be surrounded by the warmth of billions of stars, and I was glad I was standing on the ground. I fell in love with myself, and my friends, and the universe, in a way.
2025-12-23
Dearest fellow bloggers,
I haven't been feeling great lately. I started making this (newer) blog to escape my thoughts, and to have a place to vent. I hope you're enjoying it here!
On a more positive note, I received a christmas wish from a pen pal of whom I haven't heard for ages, and also a letter from my good friend. I'm delighted that my pal still remembers me, and I'm reminding myself that there are great things waiting for me in the future.
Happy holidays everyone! Take care!
2025-11-22
So I learned I'm on the spectrum, and the official diagnosis was so validating.
Of course, I’ll be facing the same problems over and over again. But this time I’ll accept them as facts, knowing that I’m simply a stranger in a world that doesn’t speak my language, and try to be more compassionate toward myself. If I encounter any limitations now, I’ll give different alternatives a try, like giving myself more time or asking for help, instead of turning to remorse and getting swallowed by anxiety.
I also know now that what works for neurotypicals can actually harm me. Sometimes I come across people whose advice is to engage in unpleasant, challenging things to make common problems seem small and unimportant. Sure, it may work for some, but if I try, I just melt down.
After all, most self-development books are written for the “normal”, right? That’s why I decided to focus on books written by autistic people for autistic people.
You're all caught up! here are some feel-good quotes for you:
Heaven is a practice, not a promise. Why wait? Make it here. Now.
– Alok Vaid-Menon
No reason to stay is a good reason to go.
– unknown
There's no reason to be afraid of things that are beautiful.
– Adventure Time
What are you afraid of losing... when nothing in this world belongs to you?
–artandfilm.archives
My favourite genre of books and movies are cosmic horror, existential horror, and related.
I'll write my reviews here. Click on a title and read my review in the box below.
Titles:
Annihilation
Beautiful Darkness
Review:
Annihilation (movie)
10/10
First of all, I really loved how well worked through the movies was. The "frame within a frame" technique, complex characters, and incredibly good special effects, all this made the movie a real masterpiece.
The movie feels very psychological, and the theme of the alien entity is maybe a bit secondary. I'd love to see more of what it does, what it behaves like in various other cases, etc, because I love the concept. But on the other hand, there's this sense of eerie that comes from the unknown, so maybe that's the right way.
Also I'm a huge fan of the idea that there are levels of understanding and motives that go way beyond our comprehension, but can exist in entities that differ from us. And this was a nice example of that!! Unlike us, terrestrial beings, who blindly fight for our lives, that entity wasn't fighting for anything, it was modifying living beings, but what for?
Beautiful Darkness (graphic novel)
9.5/10
The watercolor paintings, so subtle and sublime, were AMAZING in the contrast with the extreme violence and nihilism displayed in the story. It's this contrast that makes the book very special.
On the other hand, after the initial shock wears off, you get kinda used to it, and you start focusing on the plotline more. I think the plotline consisted mainly in showing the remorselessness and superficiality of any pretended virtue, it makes you really wondering how that's exactly about our society. Other than that, I felt like maybe some plot twist was missing? just a feeling tho
!! spoiler alert !!
Although all the characters and their relation to the surrounding world is fascinating and worth analysing, I found the main character particularly interesting. From the very beginning we see her being very hard-working, self-less, and noble. The turning point seems to be when her party gets ruined, and then we see her brutally torture and murder her friend mouse as a scape-goat. However, I believe this was no turning point. She didn't turn evil, she'd been evil all along, just like the others. She was just trying really hard to pretend to be noble and gentle, because that's what everyone expects from a princess, right? This pretense was just a manipulative way to have the others admire her. Besides that, I found the last page illustrating this very well. You know, through the whole book we see her trying to appeal to the prince, and it seems like she loves him. On the very last slide, when she is left alone and goes unnoticed in the house of a "real" big man who cooks and keeps the house warm, she labels that man as "her prince" in her mind. Since the "love" couldn't be possibly reciprocated, I believe it shows that the whole time the princess was ready to consider a prince anyone of whom she could take advantage.