2026-10-01

As you might’ve taken from my previous post, my start of the academic year was rather demanding! Which is on me - I was trying to do everything in advance, so that later I’d be able to allocate time for the extra commitments I voluntarily took on.

But now I decided to uncommit. I thought I’d love it, like other people do, but I won’t deny that I was in fact hoping for a miracle. I’m glad I gave it a chance, I’m glad I got my hands on some cool books I wouldn’t normally do, and most of all I’m glad I didn’t tell anyone what the „commitments“ really were. I really hate it when you make plans on a whim, tell others about it, and once you stop pursuing it because it’s just not „your thing“, others see you as a failure. On the contrary, when you keep it to yourself, you’re free to decide whether to continue or not, unburdened by worrying about what others think.

So instead of those commitments, I finally want to dive into some philosophy stuff all by myself. For so long, I’d been postponing reading and learning stuff that aren’t directly related to my current academic goals. Partly because I wasn’t ready, partly because I didn’t have time and energy for that. I’m sure that’s gonna change since I have more free time this semester, and also feel more comfortable around here (mainly because my new roommate is chill).

I think I’ll start by reading several books on history of philosophy. One book or one semester course isn’t enough. In philosophy there’s no cumulative progress, so, in a way, even the oldest philosophy stuff can still be relevant. But most philosophers won’t do justice to them because they perceive philosophy and its development from a certain perspective that often leads to misinterpretation.

So that’s my plans so far. I’ll tell y’all how it goes!!

PS. My latin translation was indeed rather bad. But the professor was okay with it. Yippee!

PPS. Who owns our days?

2026-09-27

born to learn cool stuff

forced to translate two pages of medieval latin philosophical text till Tuesday with zero knowledge of medieval philosophical latin and no way to cheat my way out of this situation while recovering from flu

Q.F.F.F.S.

2026-09-19

I'm considering moving these blog articles to a new page, and keeping this current LOG box for micro-blogging and stuff. I think maybe this LOG box is visually more suitable for shorter, less serious content due to its small size?..

What do y'all think? I don't want to make impulsive decisions

2026-09-09

site to-do list:

- rearrange menu and second menu

- create a spirituality journal

- create an article section for „art that heals my soul“

- add review for Perfect Days

- add review for Carol and the End of the World

- create a „what’s in my bag“ element

- rearrange this LOG section??

- design new menu buttons

- rearrange and update the "art" section

…so stay tuned!!

2026-08-30

2026-08-17

I finished reading The Society of The Spectacle (Guy Debord) and also Amusing Ourselves to Death: Public Discourse in the Age of Show Business (Neil Postman). Debord’s book is particularly disheartening with its emphasis on the widespread pervasion of the spectacle. … I haven’t felt this understood since reading Fahrenheit 451.

As for now, I try to read more books, especially about media literacy, and, yknow, the spectacle. I’m thinking if the way my blog is organised is okay. I made this blog to escape social media and its bad influence, but upon reading Neil Postman’s book that explores the way form of a media determines its content, I’m starting to think that maybe the arrangement of my blog is rather spectacular. I keep these log posts short as is customary in any spectacular media, and the rest of the blog is just an image of me, rather than me being myself authentically.

I like the aesthetics of my blog and don’t plan on changing it. But maybe it’s about time I start writing longer posts and add pages with articles and stuff that actually convey a message, not just please the eye.

2026-07-22

Make sure to check out my new little page where I regularly share what's new on my blog, so you can stay in touch.

You can bookmark it or stuff. When you click on a link from there, it will lead you to the place of update. No more clicking through.

click HERE to check it out now

2026-05-25

I think no one has influenced me like Alok Vaid-Menon.

They are a poet, comedian, and public speaker. I think their philosophy can be summarized with one of their quotes: „Heaven is a practice, not a promise. Why wait? Make it here. Now.“

We unrightfully overlook the beauty of life and ourselves. We internalize the shame that society teaches us, we learn to numb ourselves, and forget we are here to be authentic, vulnerable, and beautiful. The more „normal“ we try to be, the further away we’re getting from true understanding and love. Showing up authentically, loving unconditionally, and feeling deeply is a way to make this place at least a bit heavenly.

Seeing Alok in person was a dream come true. The show was magical. They had this sparkly dress that made me feel like thousands of stars came down from the sky to bless us with a warm hug.

2026-05-14

The moment the sun finally draws close enough to warm your soul… that’s what lofi feels like.

My new favourite songs:

2026-04-19

Wow- just wow… This week was a mess!

But!!! One positive thing! As it happened, on my way back home, I talked to a fellow passenger. He turned out to be an archeologist, and told me cool stuff about our region!!

For example, that our ancestors built henges older than Stonehenge. Unfortunately, they didn’t preserve to this day because they were built from wood and clay. But we can still pinpoint where they used to stand, since their deep, wide trenches permanently changed the composition of the soil, and corn that grows there now looks different.

And also that there aren’t many menhirs because, instead, there were huge rocks that were naturally more suitable to provide connection to the sacred.

Yknow, hearing that guy talk so passionately was really nice!! I love when people are passionate about stuff like this.

2026-04-11

It’s autism awareness month, and I want to talk about how difficult friendships are for me to navigate.

I’ve never really known how to talk to people and act around them. Before you say anything – yes, I have tried putting on a persona of this funny and outgoing guy, but it either stopped working after a while, or straight up backfired.

Most of my friendships consist of meeting once in a blue moon and talking about niche things, or something deep and vulnerable. It’s nice, but you can’t talk about such things all the time, right? Then what do you do for the rest of time? I feel like a script would come in handy… although… that wouldn’t be me then.

Maybe my idea of friendship is distorted by media. In real life many people have friends just so they have someone to go to parties with. I know I wouldn’t be satisfied with that-- which begs an important question: what is my notion of a good, real-life friendship? And more importantly, does it say something about who I want to be?

No matter how much I’d wish for that, I’ll prolly never turn into a social butterfly. But I could at least unlearn my cynicism, start listening more, stop talking just for the sake of talking, become more forgiving, and lower my expectations. Maybe that’ll do something?

2026-02-20

Last week was exhausting...

I find solace in the thought that once summer comes, I’ll take up running again. As I’ll stop on a hill to catch my breath, a beautiful sunset will flood everything with its merciful shine. I’ll merge with the moment and think: This moment alone made surviving past months worth it.

A note from the future (2026-09-12) - I did not take up running. But I went for a hike to the mountains! It felt rewarding indeed.

Note from the future (2026-09-12) - I mass deleted posts I didn't like. If you were looking for something specific down here and couldn't find it, you can always hit me up.

You're all caught up! here are some feel-good quotes for you:

Heaven is a practice, not a promise. Why wait? Make it here. Now.
– Alok Vaid-Menon

No reason to stay is a good reason to go.
– unknown

Next time is next time, now is now.
– Perfect Days

What are you afraid of losing... when nothing in this world belongs to you?
–artandfilm.archives